The European Doctor part 6

This evening I met up with The European Doctor at La LaternaLaterna (Coincidently this was one of places I was at during my scavenger hunt date) in the West Village around 6pm. When I arrived he was already enjoying espresso and seemed very relaxed. It was lovely seeing him since it had been well over a month since our last date. I ordered some peppermint tea and we chatted about what was new in our lives. Neither of us had much to report unfortunately. After an hour or so of chit chat and casual banter he decides to sit next to me which was fine. He stroked and held my hand and gave me a kiss on the cheek. He also “casually” brought up the night I went to his apartment (Remember the night we fooled around, etc) I pretended to forget because having to reminisce about a casual encounter that took place ages ago felt very uncomfortable for me especially since I have little to no interest in sleeping with him at this point. I noticed a shift in his body language after this and he began asking me what we were with each other. Are we friends or are we dating? I asked him what he wanted and he said he wants us to date, but that this experience with me is very different than what he is used to. Meaning, he is accustomed to having sex and getting closer to one another. He was frustrated that things were not progressing with us and I told him that I want to take things slow with him. I know it’s not right or fair to not be completely honest with him about my feelings for him or lack thereof but a part of me really hopes that will change because on paper he is perfect. He is tall, handsome, intelligent, a surgeon, speaks multiple languages, and very sweet, and always a gentleman with me. So what is wrong with me? Why can’t I fall for him the same way he has for me? Perhaps I’m one of those people who cant like more than one person at a time. Only problem with this is that the person that I am developing feelings for doesn’t feel the same way about me. Story of my fucking life. Why is it so difficult to find someone who likes you just as much as you like them? Is that really too much to ask? I hate this feeling and I’m certainly not in the business of hurting people’s feelings. I wonder if I should just tell him we should be friends or wait it out and see what happens…

Wardrobe: Denim high waisted shorts with black tights underneath, cream blouse with black wife beater underneath, red patent leather flats, tan marc Jacobs saddlebag.